it's already 1.25am. and i am still here with my eyes and the computer open.
today i had my test on all 4 subjects. not too bad, because it covered only a fraction of the syllabus, but not too good either, simple because i didn't really revise enough. today i don't feel like studying. i don't know why. i know i couldn't afford to let 'today' happen everyday. i need to get over and finish my studies in max 2 years time. i have promised myself. i have promised it to my baby. never slack. never being a lazy frog. must always think and let my brain works.
i didn't eat my lunch, maybe because of the tests that made me wanna stay in the room staring at the books.
of cuz for someone like me who loves to eat, i never miss my dinner. i went out of my campus with a couple of buddies, to have a yummy meal to satisfy my need. nowadays a meal costs so much really, around rm5 plus minus. and the portion is, less, at least for me la. mana boleh. 'money not enough 2' leh.... and plus a drink, rm7 edi lo..with few cents back only.. aih...
what my baby said is so true. to get a simple and happy life is really not easy. it's not simple at all! and yea, when we are young we wish to grow up fast. but when we have all grown up, we wish to stay young and tender. working, is for what purpose? to survive? or to live? is saving money more important than spending money on yourself? or vise versa?
at once i remember in the Bible (one of the most important tool for my journey), in the book of Genesis chapter 3, it wrote that God has cursed every man to work among the thorns and thistles. through painful toil and sweat we will eat from it. until we return to the ground, since from it we were taken.
but i believe and know so clearly that God is not cursing us, but instead, he blessed us with knowledge and wisdom. see, through death, pains, toil and sweat, i realized that oh i am so limited, finite and weak. Work, reminded me that Cyrus Liew on earth are just a brief assignment, training and test. what i must expect and hope for, is eternity (The first song GroupGideon sang on songfest6). and with that in mind, surprisingly, i no longer long for anything else, but just to live from day to day, waiting for the day to go home. this is a simple life - do not care and crave for anything on earth right now. but only set my eyes on things above.
ok. i think i need rest now. after 3 hours of CC just now and having the first "luk-luk" of my life i need to sleep right now. but i am still not sleepy and tired wo.. no no no, tomoro class at 8am. gotta sleep now!
dear all, good nite!
*p/s: football training this sat morning at 7.30am!*
